Scrapping for a purpose....

I've really been feeling some strong "God" nudges when it comes to my creativity. I've been struggling with my faith lately, mainly dealing with the politics of the church rather than the spirituality. Been taking certain situations way too personally. I'm more of a hands on spiritualist type person. I know I'm here for a purpose, and I know God hasn't blessed me with these fabulous gifts for nothing.... I just need to figure out four things... who, what, when and where. I've been fighting nudges left and right and tonight, compelled by a woman in Florida who turned her life around in spite of the odds, decided to quit fighting and do something about it. Sigh. Why am I so stubborn?